I've realized its more than one event
it lasts over 16 months
during those months i have to change
its no more mistakes
like the ones I've made before
its my one and only chance
to change

its a change of plans again
I've said it for two years
but now
its not BOOM and i get to that goal
i have to spend 8 months getting ready
then get half way there
take part in an event
then for another 6 months
get prepared for the new me

man that scares me...