Long Gone...

Its been a month since ive last updated... and well not much as happened.. all i do is get ready for school which starts in september and maybe hang out with friends once a while. i really dont know how life went this fast. it feels like yesterday when i was at my cousins house and the bad news hit us in the morning. truthfully, i havent thought about my uncle in a while. but when i was walking with my grandma, he just came up in my head. i really do miss him. i dont really have that many memories of him. i regret not having memories of him. of all the memories i have of him, its all about how he used to smile, and lighten up the mood.

Sometimes, i really think back to that day... and it just makes me cry. that day where my family cried bucket fulls of tears. that day i had to say bye and see my uncle for the last time before he went in to the ground. the time i actually said goodbye when he was alive was the night before he died. i was going home that night. to see all those tubes and machines around him made everyone know that his life isnt going to be that long and it might even end that night. and they were right. he had left to go to heaven that night. it was february 2 2005. he was just 35. he had two little children--one had just started to go to elementary school.

When i moved to here. i remember exactly how he looked. he came in his blue cadillac and sucking on a lollipop. even then he looked fine. and that was just a year later that he died. even months before he died, he wasnt so weak. we visited the statue of liberty with my california cousins. but then, everything happened so fast. and he was gone.

I look back and i say that my uncle was the funniest person to be with. he was energetic and he was always optimistic. he would lighten up the mood. and now that hes really gone, it makes me really want to see him. i miss him. i love him. but hes long gone.....