Lonely.

i wonder at times... how am i going to survive in this world if everyone i loved was gone? that feeling of being lonely never goes away. it always feels like that for me. even if someone i love is next to me, i feel sad. maybe i was grown to self-centered and wants attention all the time. maybe its my insecurity of losing them. or my insecurity of being talked about. i dont know. but at times if eel like i dont belong.

maybe i would have been better off if i was somewhere e;se. some other person. there are times where i am happy but after that... it fades. am i too nice... am i too naive... am i that weird... am i worth it... am i just plain stupid... sometimes i think if i was all by myself i wouldnt have all these things to worry about.

am i fitting in... am i being the right friend... what am i doing wrong that they dont like me... did i go too far... would i be happy if i had their attention... i always wonder. but can they ever get answered. sometimes i just want to cry. but i cant. i have to be stronger. but its not that easy. its not easy for me to ignore these feelings. these insecurities. are they worth these things... do they even notice when i feel down... are they... most of all...

am i important?