the future

who am i going to be in the future?

i think about this all the time
people always ask tell think about your future
if you act like this now, what will you be later on?
be like this, act like this, do this
people give me an ideal person that they want me to become
sometimes i just want to say i don’t care and just think about what’s going on now
don’t become like this, become like that
i know its for the best
yet this scares me and worries me
what if i don’t become like this
what if i disappoint them
there’s a bunch of what if’s

what am i really going to be in the future?
am i going to be the person they want me to be?
i am going to be happy and joyful with what i will be doing?
will i live my life to the fullest?

why.. why can’t i be the person i want to be
why can’t i be the person they want me to be
it seems so close, yet so far

“tell me why”