정은에게..

Hey Jennifer. You’re right next to me bumming out on the couch. I love you ♥ Honestly, It’s been a rough patch trying to trust you, but I’ve finally overcome it. I trust you 100%. I’ve never had a friend like you, let alone a best friend. You’re an amazing person and I’m so happy I met you and got close to you. If I ignored you, or you felt neglected or left out, I’m sorry. I don’t mean it, and I would never purposely go out of my way to hurt you. As much as I trust you, I hope you trust me. Confide in me when you need me. And honestly, I don’t sleep much anyways, so you can call me or text me anytime. If you’re in trouble, call me. If you’re stressing out, curse me out on the phone. I’m here for you baby boooo. ♥ And I learned so many things about you, I feel so close to you. You’re like this sister I never had. Right now I hacked your blog because I was going through your laptop, and I “came across” the live writer or whatever. But it’s embarrassing to say this out loud, just cause it is. So I’m gonna tell this all to you online through your own blog. You never fail to make me laugh, and whenever I have a problem or an issue, or some problematic thought, you always listen to me and you never disappoint to make me feel better. So it’s almost four in the morning, and you’re still awake at my house. I love our talks about Jaebum and 2PM and some kpop stuff and your concerns and my concerns. I love how you listen to my random boy issues, and giggle when I’m on the phone with them and I have to mute the phone to tell you to shut up. ♥ Remember, if your marriage with Jaebum doesn’t work out, I get to keep him. If it does, I get Wooyoung! So he dances his strangely…… interesting dance for me. HOT SEX. They’re so cute…. Still. I love you more. MAYBE. Maybe around the same with Jaebum and Wooyoung. Right? Right. I love all the other members, just those two the most. Anyways, I love our memories and I hope to make more with you. LOL I feel like we’re married. But technically we are. Yknow, facebook says so. I’ll never leave you wife. UNLESS… yknow. ♥ teehee. Stop with your coca cola addiction. It’s bad for you, and you know it. OMG JAEBUM JUST SANG ON AGAIN AND AGAIN. HOT SEX. Please stay healthy for me. We gotta go to the high school reunion together and laugh at everyone’s face cause you and I are at the top of our game. Right? right. You gotta stop looking so vulnerable. I always gotta save my damsel in distress cause you’re too nice. Baby, you gotta show you’re strong. You show me you’re strong because I’m your best friend, but I want you to show it to the world. Make me proud baby girl ♥ And remember I’m here for you, always. Don’t ever think I’m too busy or too cool for you. Maybe the second part, but never the first part. LOL. Anyways we gotta have a date OUTSIDE soon. Alright? So hurry up with your house project labor thing. I love you ♥ Bye best friend. (080808 forever)

past with pictures

i took out my nikon d40 today. its been a while since i used it. i ordered my charger, but its supposed to come in like 3-6 weeks. its out of stock at the moment. sigh. looking at the pictures i last took, makes me laugh and miss theses days somewhat. this was when i actually took a vacation. where i relaxed and thought about nothing really. well kind of. i thought about my missing charger and my summer assignments, but i didnt have to do it on vacation so it was all good. 

i just want to look at the past…
you can do it with me haha (:

 
i dont actually know where these are…
i dont actually know where these are either… LOL

and now my trip/cruise to alaska begins

HEY LOOK MOUNTAINS! and more and more and more….
 
lucky person has a laptop i had…nothing –0-;;
 
YOU ARE MY DESTINY charging my ipod..dad’s ipod at my cruise room LOL

look its the cruise ship haha i loved that weather… T_T;;

my appetizer tomato….something i dont think it tasted that well… cant really remember
 

nice waterfall thingy…. i want that LOL
 
KING OF FRUITS if only i could carve like that ><;;

chilling at the lounge or something LOL i ate icecream before this i remember ! :O

swans~ made from towels… i bought that towel animal making book…. where did i put that…. >0<;;

look carefully you can see a cruise ship under the sun :O

time to say good bye!

important

daddy sure knows how to make me feel like i’m important (:<

“Jungeun, because of you this family is a mess”

the future

who am i going to be in the future?

i think about this all the time
people always ask tell think about your future
if you act like this now, what will you be later on?
be like this, act like this, do this
people give me an ideal person that they want me to become
sometimes i just want to say i don’t care and just think about what’s going on now
don’t become like this, become like that
i know its for the best
yet this scares me and worries me
what if i don’t become like this
what if i disappoint them
there’s a bunch of what if’s

what am i really going to be in the future?
am i going to be the person they want me to be?
i am going to be happy and joyful with what i will be doing?
will i live my life to the fullest?

why.. why can’t i be the person i want to be
why can’t i be the person they want me to be
it seems so close, yet so far

“tell me why”

ey yo

i have one thing to say right now



------------------JAEBUMMMMMMMMMMM<3

falling in love with him
right teresa? LOL