아빠

slowly step by step i understand
i understand what you want to achieve
i feel like i can finally see
what youve been telling me all this time
아빠 that one word i definitely treasure
in a sense it feels like im back to when i was a child
when you would put your arm around my shoulders and just squeeze it
as a sign of happiness
you did it today
i felt happy again
not because you took me shopping, or bought over hundreds of dollars worth of clothes
it must have been because of that moment
that moment really gave me reunsurance that you had faith in me
you used to always do that with me
take pictures, hang out, laugh
we did all the father-daughter things there were in this world
then you got sick
then i moved
then i came back
then you got worse
but then now youre better
youre really getting better
at first when i saw her
i really felt akward
i got new family members
it felt weird
but now i see it
i see you laughing with her
more than with anyone else
she saved your life too
i dont know how i can repay her
in a way shes like my new mother
in a way shes like my life saver
without her i dont think you would have been here this happy and healthy
i thank her for that
i dont know
today seeing me happy made you happy made me happy
but i also felt ashamed it was like i was only happy cause i gotten new clothes
i really dont care what people say
i want to be your baby girl again
i want to go back to when i was a child
when i would always be around you
in two words
all this just means
사랑해 아빠