and so it rains....







again

"Aim High"

"Aim high,
To achieve the best
Doesn't matter where you come from,
What matters is how you use your head
People don't control you,
You control yourself
It might be happiness today, but sadness tomorrow
Don't care what others say, do, or think,
This is all you
Don't care what others see you as,
Just know what you're aiming for
Life is all about will, smarts, and power,
Don't waste what you have
Doesn't matter who you are,
Everyone has a chance of becoming who they want to be as long as you go for it
It's all your choice whether you go bad or good,
Noones going to choose for you
Even if others are going the wrong way,
You go the right way
There is nothing you can't do,
Just go for it
You take care of yourself,
People aren't always going to watch over you
While people destory their body,
I will stay healthy,
I will see you become a doctor, get married, and live a happy life,
I won't die before that
I will be there for you,
You just do your best to become special"
--사랑하는 우리 아빠


I'll never be ashamed of you,
Even if you have no job, you're a hobo, work at a low job,
I'm not ashamed because you're my dad, you're always there for me, And I love you as much as you love me


You & Me
Columbia & NYU !
Let's go for it!
Fighting!

fathers day

wow its fathers day soon.
i hope he likes the present
i hope he likes his present
theyre different
but they mean so much to me
i wish we have a good fathers day (:

the one question i need to ask

what the hell is wrong with you?

아빠

slowly step by step i understand
i understand what you want to achieve
i feel like i can finally see
what youve been telling me all this time
아빠 that one word i definitely treasure
in a sense it feels like im back to when i was a child
when you would put your arm around my shoulders and just squeeze it
as a sign of happiness
you did it today
i felt happy again
not because you took me shopping, or bought over hundreds of dollars worth of clothes
it must have been because of that moment
that moment really gave me reunsurance that you had faith in me
you used to always do that with me
take pictures, hang out, laugh
we did all the father-daughter things there were in this world
then you got sick
then i moved
then i came back
then you got worse
but then now youre better
youre really getting better
at first when i saw her
i really felt akward
i got new family members
it felt weird
but now i see it
i see you laughing with her
more than with anyone else
she saved your life too
i dont know how i can repay her
in a way shes like my new mother
in a way shes like my life saver
without her i dont think you would have been here this happy and healthy
i thank her for that
i dont know
today seeing me happy made you happy made me happy
but i also felt ashamed it was like i was only happy cause i gotten new clothes
i really dont care what people say
i want to be your baby girl again
i want to go back to when i was a child
when i would always be around you
in two words
all this just means
사랑해 아빠

the more i think about it
the more i get pissed off
whats the point in sending me that text?
seriously...

sick

todayyyy

one - almost got lost in a store LOL
two - watching angels & demons made me mad nervous so intense :O
three - walked around for thirty min trying to look for a dress store that we didnt know the name of
four - learned a new word : douche bag its a thing that cleans the female peeing place and that douche is a verb "yo, i am douching / did you douche" LMAO
five - spent 7-8 ish hours at the mall

ahhh what a nice day with teresa (:

repair
can someone ever repair me?
fix me up?
fix and repair the broken pieces of me

sometimes i wish i was a mute
just be silent
just be listening