꿈

i told my grandmother
i have this dream
this dream of being someone or something that my dad doesnt know about
i dont want to tell him
my dad...
he wants me to become successful
he wants me to make alot of money
but becoming that one thing i always wanted
can have two extremely different paths
either i fail... or i succeed in being that person
i asked grandma what if i were to give up becoming a doctor
and go for that dream
she replied go for it with all your might if you really want to
i said what if i fail.. wouldnt daddy be disappointed in me
just like 언니 he put his all in me
and i would be letting him down...
my grandmother said 무슨 자식이 부모님 위해 살아?
i thought about it..
sure im scared of disappointing my dad..
but more so i think im scared of disappointing myself
because i know to achieve that dream and become that kind of person
its almost 1 out of a million
would i be part of that 1 out of a million?
thinking about this i realized
im more scared of myself that anything else...
maybe i should work harder to achieve that goal that dream
i should take my chances
little by little
get a little closer towards that point