모르겠어

i'm back on this blog after almost 6 months
i don't have much to say
the only thing on my mind is my future and my relationships with people

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모르겠어...

fine its all my fault
its all my fault
have it your way
it was all me
it was because of me all these bad things happened
are you happy now?

i don't know

i haven't been on this blog in a way.
maybe its cause i got a new one.
i don't know...
i feel lost. lost at sea.
just waiting for someone to rescue me.

these days i long for the cold.
something about the cold makes me feel alive.
the cold air brushing against my skin.
its almost like waking me up to reality.

i don't know who you are anymore.
we aren't what we used to be.
yet you want us to be.
sometimes i wonder do i really mean that much to you?
or are you just saying that to make me feel better
i can never tell
for every second that passes the more i dont know who you are.
do you want me to know?

you dont want me in your life

 

you dont want to be in our lives

 

but i love you both…
but but all i can do is wait

they will never understand